Unwinding.

My mind is going crazy today. I need my life planned out. I don't need to know what I'm doing, just where I'm supposed to be doing it.

I have an interview for the most amazing job, that could lead to great opportunities for me. The only thing I can't grasp is the location...AMES. Don't get me wrong I love Ames, but not so much for real life.

I'm still contemplating Des Moines, Minneapolis and Madison, because I want to be around my friends. Maybe that is shutting a lot of doors in my job hunt. But I'm not going to be happy with life unless I'm surrounded by my friends.

Lastly, NYC. I want it NOW! Why can't it just be closer to home? I am literally torturing myself by still looking for jobs there, watching Gossip girl and visiting CondeNast all too often. I still want to be there by 26 and just get dissapointed knowing what all I need to accomplish before then.

So in order to ease all my craziness I decided to write out a 5 year plan. But then realized I don't even know where to begin or what I want for that matter. This is where my list obsession comes in. For some reason whenever I just write everything down, it makes a lot more sense on paper.

I'm just torn in every which way today and just want it to be over.

Day 1

Well. Welcome to Day 1 of the next 30 days. I am VOWING to write at least one excerpt everyday for the next 30.

Although I don't have a job, I still somehow "never have time to write". Between applying for jobs, being Dan Kunkel's slave and catching up on Gossip Girl re-runs I'm just super busy. haha.

I'm still on the job hunt. (trust me I'm just as tired of that being the only thing to write about as you are.) My dad just can't grasp why I don't settle for any job that comes my way. But I would like to have a little more respect for myself than $12 dollars an hour.

I have broadened my job search to more than just event planning and PR. But still have to reassure myself that a few years of doing not what I want exactly.. won't kill me. I just want to make sure that I am finding a job that is contributing to the bigger picture of my grand career path.

Go State!

Hello everyone. It has been a while since I posted, I have been doing a lot of traveling back and forth between Iowa and Chicago and haven't had the best of luck with the internet lately.

Well As everyone knows, I quit my shady job about a month ago. So I had to make the executive decision to move back home. Afterall, it is the "responsible" thing to do. Ideally I would love to live in the city "for fun", but realistically that is a joke. So as of Monday, I am back to square one, in a square room, in my home in Baxter.

I am still applying to jobs in the city, but have mainly been looking in Des Moines. I've decided that hanging around Iowa for a year or 2 won't kill me, plus all my friends are still in the area and we are all still at the stage of wanting to be together.. before we all get grown up and new lives begin. My goal is to be in NYC by 26 (at the latest). There it is in writing people, so it's concrete!

As for now, I'm just living the dream I guess you could say. I want a JOB, but until then I'm pretending I'm still in college. Tailgating tonight at the first ISU game of the season... GO STATE!

Brent and Chad.

Newest Edition to Apt. 906: Brent and Chad.
Aaron and I decided our apartment needed a little more life. And in deciding names, we knew we wanted to name them human names. When we went to the store we had 2 fish picked out that we both loved, they were very colorful and so energetic. The guy told us we couldn't get them cause we didn't have an air filter. So we had to settle for these two, so sadly for them we basically didn't even like them when we bought them. So we didn't want to waste the "good" names (that I am not going to disclose) on these fish. But by the end of the first night we had fallen in love and it was Aaron's idea to name them after our friends. Now we are having the best time talking about the fish and laughing at the context when our friends names are involved. It's great.

Toms.

I NEED A JOB. If I have to have one more conversation with Dan Kunkel about "where my life is going"...or hear the famous line "You need hit the pavement"...I am going to stab myself in the leg to avoid the conversation completely. My dad does not understand that I am looking and applying everyday, it's not like I enjoy sucking out his bank account at the age of 24. I want nothing more than to be on my own, supporting myself and finally being FREED of them and allowing my parents to be free of me.

I am currently about to go out of my mind insane if I have to sit in my house one more day. I'm riding to Chicago with my friend Tara, but she is coming from Minnesota and with all the flooding going on around Ames, it's making it a little hard for her to make it to me.

The Question of the day is: You have to give away all your shoes except for one pair. Which ones do you keep?
This question is easy for me. As most of you know I don't own a large shoe collection due to a little situation I like to call...bunyons. I am going to say my Toms. Everyone should own a pair. No explanation needed.

Iowa. Again.

First I just want to say I cannot WAIT to start blogging on my computer. So I can upload pictures onto the blog. Not to mention, upload a new "Profile" pic. I cringe everytime I look at the one I have now.

I am currently in Iowa. I came home last weekend for a wedding. Tiff and Cam :) Can't believe one of my close friends is actually married, because a wedding of my own seems like IONS away. Which I'm totally okay with. But somehow while here, picked up a bug and have been spending the days on the couch with a super sore throat.

Still just continuing the job search. Starting to expand my horizons back to the New York Area. It's just always in the back of my mind that I miss it. I keep telling myself that I can live somewhere else for a while and after some experience..not to mention, after some savings, I can go back there. But If you know me I am such an I WANT IT NOW personality. SO i keep talking myself back down to just chill. I need to remember I am young and if all works out as planned, I have my entire life ahead.

So. I randomly follow this blog, I don't know how I found it, or when I found it but i've been following this girl for like a year. I want to say she is in her late 20's and lives in Des Moines and she is just funky and fun. She, like me, is very inconsistant on the updates and decided to start blogging for a straight 30 days. She found a website that gives prompts on what to blog about each day. So I'm going to jump on that band wagon. I know I have already written a lot today and my life isn't really that exciting for you to spend 10 minutes reading a blog...so I'll make it quick

Who is the oldest person you know? My Great Grandma. I was actually lucky enough to know all but one of my great grandparents. And one is still living. She is in the upper 90's and is still so healthy. She has never had a drivers license and up until like last year she would walk to get her mail and groceries all the time. She is a sweet old lady, who still lives on her own and although she is occassionally known for dialing the remote instead of the telephone, and can't hear worth a damn she is still wise beyond her years :) And I will always cherish my childhood on her porchswing.

And So it continues.

The Job search is still on. I didn't get the internship that I was wanting. It's a little rough. This is the first interview I have ever had that didn't end positively. I am a little disappointed in myself, due to the fact that I wanted the job so badly..I think I put myself under a little too much pressure and wasn't as great in my interview as I could have been.

We had a special guest this weekend. Lindsey Knapp. (yes, you made it into the blog). One of my best friends and we had a little ISU reunion here with Allie, Blanca, and Knapp all here. Let's just say you can take us out of Ames but you can't take Ames out of us.

I'm still very up in the air about where my life is going. At times I like letting it just fall into place, but then I look at my bank account as it is dwindling down and it makes me determined to get a job asap. I do believe things just fall into place, they always do just hopefully they fall sooner than later.