Unwinding.

My mind is going crazy today. I need my life planned out. I don't need to know what I'm doing, just where I'm supposed to be doing it.

I have an interview for the most amazing job, that could lead to great opportunities for me. The only thing I can't grasp is the location...AMES. Don't get me wrong I love Ames, but not so much for real life.

I'm still contemplating Des Moines, Minneapolis and Madison, because I want to be around my friends. Maybe that is shutting a lot of doors in my job hunt. But I'm not going to be happy with life unless I'm surrounded by my friends.

Lastly, NYC. I want it NOW! Why can't it just be closer to home? I am literally torturing myself by still looking for jobs there, watching Gossip girl and visiting CondeNast all too often. I still want to be there by 26 and just get dissapointed knowing what all I need to accomplish before then.

So in order to ease all my craziness I decided to write out a 5 year plan. But then realized I don't even know where to begin or what I want for that matter. This is where my list obsession comes in. For some reason whenever I just write everything down, it makes a lot more sense on paper.

I'm just torn in every which way today and just want it to be over.

Day 1

Well. Welcome to Day 1 of the next 30 days. I am VOWING to write at least one excerpt everyday for the next 30.

Although I don't have a job, I still somehow "never have time to write". Between applying for jobs, being Dan Kunkel's slave and catching up on Gossip Girl re-runs I'm just super busy. haha.

I'm still on the job hunt. (trust me I'm just as tired of that being the only thing to write about as you are.) My dad just can't grasp why I don't settle for any job that comes my way. But I would like to have a little more respect for myself than $12 dollars an hour.

I have broadened my job search to more than just event planning and PR. But still have to reassure myself that a few years of doing not what I want exactly.. won't kill me. I just want to make sure that I am finding a job that is contributing to the bigger picture of my grand career path.

Go State!

Hello everyone. It has been a while since I posted, I have been doing a lot of traveling back and forth between Iowa and Chicago and haven't had the best of luck with the internet lately.

Well As everyone knows, I quit my shady job about a month ago. So I had to make the executive decision to move back home. Afterall, it is the "responsible" thing to do. Ideally I would love to live in the city "for fun", but realistically that is a joke. So as of Monday, I am back to square one, in a square room, in my home in Baxter.

I am still applying to jobs in the city, but have mainly been looking in Des Moines. I've decided that hanging around Iowa for a year or 2 won't kill me, plus all my friends are still in the area and we are all still at the stage of wanting to be together.. before we all get grown up and new lives begin. My goal is to be in NYC by 26 (at the latest). There it is in writing people, so it's concrete!

As for now, I'm just living the dream I guess you could say. I want a JOB, but until then I'm pretending I'm still in college. Tailgating tonight at the first ISU game of the season... GO STATE!